That Girl

For anyone that may not like the idea of same sex relationships I would advise you turn back now, because the following is about exactly that.


Note: I got the Idea for this a few weeks ago when talking to a friend of mine who had said she’d never fallen in love with a girl although she had been with and dated them, and it struck me that I had found something so unique. In a world where many people never know love at all, I found love not once, but twice. Both completely different, with different genders, and yet both so amazing and unforgettable.


I hope that at one point in your life you manage to find someone that can make you feel electric just by being around them. I hope you find someone that makes you feel like you’re caught in the middle of a thunder and lightning storm, soaked to the core and feeling things that you only ever heard about or dreamt of. I Hope that it's a love so deep that it leaves you feeling like you’re spinning out of control, but at the end of the day it’s everything that you need and want in your life.

That’s what she was to me, and so much more.

I remember the exact moment I knew that I had fallen in love with her. I was crying my eyes out, swollen eyes and red faced as I laid with my head in her lap. Despite all that she brushed my hair from my face and a tear from my cheek and told me that I was pretty. It was the first time I had heard that from someone and seen the sincerity in their eyes. Her words were so gentle but they washed over me like waves on the shore and soaked him in the feeling of realization.

We used to joke about how she was a natural disaster, but in many ways she really was. She hit me like a lightning bolt, left me breathless, thoughtless, and in shambles. She had this way of bringing out the craziness in me and making me do things that I’d never have thought to do. She pulled me out of my shell and made be feel like I could take on the world and conquer anything I tried for. If you’ve ever dances around with sparklers and just left yourself enjoy the rush, the fun and the beauty of it than you’re halfway to the feeling that she gave me.

Sometimes being with her felt like dancing in the pouring rain and getting soaked to the bone. The afterglow felt like euphoria, and it filled the room like a comfortable stillness. Our very first kiss caught me off guard. She tasted sweet and she was so soft, but there was so much intensity in it that I felt myself carried away like a tree branch in a twister.

I never told her how strongly I felt, nor did I ever admit that I loved her. It was my best kept secret, and she was my first real love.

I had to fight just to stand up once she knocked me down, and she made me ache with how much I needed her. In the end I came to the conclusion that she was like lightning in a bottle, beautifully breathtaking but dangerous nonetheless. I was lucky to make it out alive, but I wouldn’t change or forget it ever. Still to this day I get that butterfly feeling when I think of her sometimes, and I still get that rush when I remember how it all felt. She will forever set me free, and with any luck forever have a place in my life.